Is hard to do.

Worm, you got underneath my skin
And now I can’t pick you out.
With no doubt you’re the greatest addiction
I could do without - maybe
I'll drown you out.
Push you out.

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Together for almost three years, it's hard to believe things are over - but I have optimism. He's my best friend and I am his, and though it isn't easy, I don't harbor negative feelings for him. On the contrary, I look forward to a lot of years of happiness and adventure, still. He's the only person I have met during college who knows me through-and-through, and to lose someone like that would be mortifying. Although I'm lonely for him, nothing will come of this other than a lot of writing-rambles and a few new artworks.

Getting a new tattoo today. To date, I have seven. The eighth is going to be a mix of us and a few other elementals, and I'm not quite sure how he would feel about it - mainly because I don't know how I feel about it. It is something I think needs to be done, however, in order to survive him. I have an addiction to body modifcation - piercing, tattooes, hairdye, scarification - it seems the best way of closure, for me. Nothing corny with our anniversary date or his name or any of that shit, but something that encompasses us. Not trying to go for the creepy ex-girlfriend-still-in-love thing, either - it's closure for a really good chapter in my life. I guess people who don't obsessively change their bodies won't really understand this, so there's little reason in explaining.

Will update with foto later.